9 December 2009

dreamlike


a walk in the late autumn light in the afternoon
weather is bad, cold and damp
suddenly by the time the sunset starts
a beautiful golden light illuminate some tops of the skyline
becoming a beautiful combination of black and white
with a touch of bright colors
like in a scene or a dream...

27 August 2009

tenderness


... and then, I couldn't stop thinking about a picture I had done a couple of years ago that was aimed to show the feeling of belonging and tenderness that sometimes if we are lucky enough, can experience.

... to get the feeling of hearing the rhythm of the one who we love, breathing and see the beautiful expression of a face when sleeping peacefully in our arms and contemplate the closed eyelids slightly slightly moving, seeing hopefully, wonderful landscapes, multiple shades of colours, moonbeams touching the surface of the water or the first rays of light on a cold morning day

... feeling the warmth that's coming from two embraced naked bodies and all your senses getting fulfilled with a perfect connection that hardly can be expressed neither in words or shapes ... you see your self, shivering of pleasure and you wish that you were a poet to be able to translate into words what you just have felt.

[picture: the Cullbergsballet dancing a piece of "position of elsewhere" 22/8/09 at Vitabergsparken in Stockholm]

17 April 2009

life is a journey


life is a journey
(the by line of samsonite as the picture above)
after a couple a years living in the worst chaos ever in my life and this time totally alone I came to trust life again and everything seemed to fall in place and even when the expectations weren't the best the hope had come back.
life was quite good until everything started to fall apart ... again

you never think about the world wide economy but after the last fall of the stock market in the States reality has become suddenly not just something you see on CNN but a notice that remind you the thin line between being an active professional and a man in between jobs.

and not just that, but the whole picture, changes.
the journey has been given a new direction and at the same time it has stopped the time because it will mean that I'll be forced to stay in a place where I do not belong and, neither I know anyone for almost three more months!

as I said when talking to a friend, I have been in deeper shit in my life than now and somehow I have managed to turn the direction on, even when it has costed me pretty much strength and tears.

15 March 2009

"when i walk" (musetta's waltz)

Quando me'n vò soletta per la via,

La gente sosta e mira

E la bellezza mia tutta ricerca in me,

ricerca in me
Da capo a pie' ...

Ed assaporo allor la bramosia
sottil che da
gl'occhi traspira
e dai palesi vezzi intender sa

Alle occulte beltà.

Cosi l’effluvio del desio tutta m'aggira,

felice mi fa, felice me fa!

E tu che sai, che memori e ti struggi

Da me tanto rifuggi?

So ben:
le angoscie tue non le vuoi dir,

non le vuoi dir so ben

Ma ti senti morir!

When I walk alone in the street
People stop and stare at me
And everyone looks at my beauty,
Looks at me,
From head to foot...
And then I relish the sly yearning
which escapes from their eyes
and which is able to perceive
my most hidden beauties.
Thus the scent of desire is all around me,
and it makes me happy, makes me happy!
And you who know, who remember and yearn
you shrink from me?
I know it very well:
you do not want to express your anguish,
I know so well that you do not want to express it
but you feel as if you are dying!


it's not just the music and the scene that attract me,
it's more than that.
It reminds me an encapsulated time of my life
and the last couples of decades in a pursue of self-confidence.
the text (and the music) shows what it is a characteristic
of the personality of a person that i think everyone has and feel;
the need of feeling that you are attractive,
that you can feel the "scent of desire..all around you" as Musetta sings,
because that means that you are alive and living life,
not just passing by,
not just waiting for something to happen,
just living.

6 March 2009

at last!

that was the last dance,
I knew it from the very moment you just were by my door
and not being sure wether to get in or not.
you had become in two weeks time an estrange

you didn't belong here anymore
an odd moment
you were talking to me but not being there
a ghost already

i got a text from you at my birthday
i didn't get any feelings at all
i just sent a 'thanks' back and i know now that,
that time is over
free at last!

photo: skånes dansteater, vitabergsparken, 2008

i e truth

i didn't come here to hear the truth,
please lye to me for once.

5 February 2009

in the middle of nowhere


and i was on the road again once more,
starting a new life in a new place and with not that much with me
the new apartment was nice but empty

i just had to go to Ikea to buy a carpet to cover the naked floor
i just can't stand being in a desert place specially when
the place is in a town in the middle of nowhere.

on the other hand i can't either be anywhere and let the things be as they are
i just have to make changes and try to create some sort of harmony and a sense of design
therefore, i took one of the few things i had with me
a chair, a lamp, a flash light my portfolio bag and a case whit CD:s
and arranged a sort of installation that makes me fell like i belong here